Eye-candy Books

I have read more books in the last 2 months than in the last year. They are nothing, just something to keep me from thinking, wishing too hard. Yet even the eye-candy books have a thing or two that resonate through me.

"Everyone wants to protect me (lately). My parents did too. You think if I don't hear bad things, then they won't exist anymore. But you know what? They DO exist, and I DO end up hearing them. And I wish to God that I could have heard them from the people I loved first."


Sigh.....


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Just One

Just one kiss
to say
hello and
goodbye

Just one kiss
to last a lifetime
for both

Just one kiss
closing
one life
to begin
another


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Triggers

Digging myself from this very, deep dark hole is not easy. Two shovels full out and 3 in. Before I long I will have dug my way to China.






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Hard truths

Hard truths can be dealt with, triumphed over, but lies will destroy your soul.








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Wishing

I wish you had told me
then I could have loved you
not just a child's love
for her mother

But

the love one has
for someone who
saved them and
loved just because.

I wish you had told me
I could have told you it was
worth more than birth,
it was love

that tied us
not accidental birth
but acceptance
and love.

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Boxes

The box is in the trash
with the pictures you returned
the letter I never read.

The box is gone
I can finally let it go
the memories were real, but with
no more substance.

The box is gone/broken/worn
with that part of my heart
that had held on in the hope
that you really did love me.

The box is gone
I can breathe again.
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